TPR

3 years, till today I still feel bad. I saw you in the bus, we looked at each other and turn away. I was actually hoping that you would talk to me, or at least smile at me. My heart was beating so fast, my hands were trembling. I don't know how I felt at the point of time, but after seeing you, I realize that I miss you, as a friend, a lot. Someone who will cheer me up no matter what, someone who will be there for me. I realized saying "yes" was a mistake, we could have still be friends now. We could probably be best friends now. We could probably be planning to go to the same jc/poly right now. Everytime I'm back at west coast, I was hoping to see you, then we could actually start a conversation and be close friends like how we used to. And I really want to say sorry to you. I wish you would care for me like how you used to, you always give in to me and never ever throw tantrum at me no matter how I treated you. You were the one who remembered the anniversary dates. You never ever made me felt inferior when I'm with you. I still remember you saying that you liked the present I gave you to make me feel better as the present was nothing special. You made me felt like i was the most fortunate girl, you always compliment me, you always put me before anything else. But I still feel inferior because of your friends and family. I guess that probably that reason why we are like this now. We were 2 worlds apart, you're their smart, lovable and obedient child, I'm just someone that's fat, ugly, stupid and has a broken family. In no way we're similar. You should have taken their advice to never know me, I should listen to their advice to not accepting you. If only. Now that's things are like that, I just want to say I'm sorry and I miss you a lot. At times I still dream about you, wishing that we're friends. 

"Thankyou for the 105 days, it was wonderful. And I still love you. :) "