2010, the year that I lost my closest Kin, my dad. The year I start to drift apart from babe, but also the year that I found love. The year that I almost lost everything that mean so much to me. Cmg, love, bro and babe.
And everyone single one that mean so much to me.
But then 2011 is worst.
I still can't get over the fact that daddy is not around anymore. ._. This year, I made the worst decision. To express my feelings. Which hurt a lot of people. This year, I changed. I change to the worst. I got rebellious. I broke promises, I hurt people. This year is also the year that we fought hard for nationals top 4 but ite top 16. This year, I felt nothing but felt useless. Crying every night trying to make myself better, trying to get all of them back in my life, trying to get rid of those bad to me. But I can't :( I can do NOTHING bout it. That's my fate. This year, I flunked my eoy. No one to blame, but myself to be so weak. To be so easily affected by your words. Me and babe changed. We used to talk at least 6hours a day. We can actually spend the while day, 24/7 together. But I don't have the time to be with her, thus always breaking those promises I made with her. Shabushabu, more than half of the team is being asked to quit. We can't even speak properly now. They find it meaningless. First half of the year was OKAY. There's still laughter and everything. But what happened that changed all these, idk. 2011, also a year that me and love got even much closer. This year, I tried my best to go along with him, find more time to spend time tgt with him. Thousands of quarrels but If I'm not wrong, our last quarrel was September. I think. Our relationship got a lot stronger. Till now, he's the only one staying with me.
2011 : year of shitz.
Vernice :
Things changed alot yeah? Drifted apart, we no much difference from being a stranger. Sorry. No words can explain my feelings towards you. Maybe I 生在福中不知富. All I wanna tell you is that take care of yourself. To him, you're everything. Don't give up on your life so easily. Not everything is easy, not being nice and others will be happy. No, learn how to make yourself happy. That's the most important thing. Stay strong. Last long. :) thanks for everything.
Anabel and sera :
Things will change in future when we go to different class. Hope we will still stay as close friends. Thanks for all those memories you two gave in the last 2 years.
Babe:
I'm sorry for always not being able to meet you, but I really hope you will understand that 我也有苦衷. My life now is different from the past, I don't have much freedom. Please understand. But still, whenever you need me, I'm just a text away. :) you may have sophia now, but whenever she's unavailable, here I am, all ready to listen to your complains . :) I love you.
